In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “First Crush.”
Well …my heart desires at the time when I was in my teens speaks of a different language than what was whispering in my mind.
I was a late bloomer. I was determined to finish my degree and to pursue my dreams. I do not think of boys or even men seriously until my mid 20’s.
Except for one boy who almost stole my heart and he was just a “crush”.
My ambitions in life will be “crushed” if I choose what my heart desires, besides “He” is just a crush. Though my heart was hurting at the time of my decisions NOT to encourage the blossoming friendships… my mind was strong enough to pursue what I think is best for me and my future. He was not ambitious enough and our views in life are more like water and oil.
There he is walking with a young toddler and probably his wife or partner. He didn’t see me or perhaps recognize me as it was so many years passed already. I do not have a child yet but is already married. I smiled and glad that he seems content with his family and simple life. That was 7yrs ago or so… not sure anymore but I haven’t seen him since every time I go back and visit my parents, relatives, and friends.
Perhaps that is my main point … I don’t want just a “simple life” and be content where I know I can achieve more. The more I achieve in life the better as I am not thinking about myself alone… I need to help my aging parents financially. Sometimes we only get one chance in life. So with that, I made my decision to be wiser and that to end the beginning with my “crush” is good enough reason.
After a decade I had a good career that I was proud of, a good husband who is very supportive of me of what I want in my life (not just being a trailing housewife, a mother, and an expat in a desert Country), finally have my young son, a blog to write when I have the time and leisure to do so and I want to travel the World while I am able to. I probably have a different path in life if I have been sidetracked by my crush!
So what can you say about your first crush?